Just in case you were wondering...God is good.

As you can imagine...now knowing where I am in my life presently (see previous post), I have my good days and days that are not so good...and while it is good to know that God is now in my life, and that He is in control of me and everything in my life. I have not been able to totally let God have "total control" of my life. My flesh still wants to try and control everything. I figure it may be like going through withdrawals, or more like a reprogramming process of sorts.

Because once you become a Christian...your life is no longer in your hands...that may be something that you don't realize at the time you chose to "give" your life to Christ, but that is the reality of it. SO - let me say it again...once you "give" your life to Christ..."YOUR LIFE" is no longer yours. Now with that said, not once, but twice...I have to say that there is nothing better that you could ever do; other than to give your life to Christ. It is not the easiest path to follow however, and if Satan has his way about it he would have you fail...BUT remember; "OUR" God is a good God, and if He gave His only begotten Son to die on the cross, so that we can be forgiven for our sins; then don't think for one minuet that He would ever let Satan have control over your life. In God you have control over Satan, and God is in control over your life at all times.

So let's not forget this reprogramming that HAS to take place...and it can be painful at times. But this would be dependant upon your personal ability to totally give up control on your life of course. But us being humans and thinking that we are actually in control...HAHAHAhaaaa - that is God laughing at us all...we tend to try and hang on to our perception of "us being in control" as long as we can...thus prolonging that reprogramming process sometimes for years. From what I can see atthis stage of my Christian walk.

So, this weekend I am dealing with a heavy heart...I am just tired of being where I am presently in my professional life, with my relationship and most certainly my financial life...out of the clear blue on Thursday; I received a phone call to attend a prayer meeting at my church (Grace Community Church, South Campus), and I accepted the offer...it sounded fun and I have been wanting to get involved with the church more. But little did I know that I was going to be dealing with this heavyness in my heart this weekend. BUT God knew, and once again He put me at the place that I needed to be, so He could take care of me as He always does.

So I inserted myself into God's equation today and I am a better person/Christian for it...it is all part of the reprograming process that God has in store for us as we grow in Him. And we need to allow Him to take total control of our lives. And as I personally see it, as a Christian; what we are suppose to do is to have an open heart (always listening for the Holy Spirit), be curious, joyful and to be brave enough to see just what God has in store for us.

Until next time...

Father God I pray that You continue molding me into a better Representative of You, and that You continue to guide me to the places that You want and need me to be. That You use me each and everyday anyway that You see fit. And Father I ask You today to send out the Holy Spirit like never before. Seeking new souls to be lead to You, that You touch the lives of people who have never known You, or the ones that have known You but have walked away from You for whatever reason, and lead them to You, and back to You Father God. For you Father are a good God that will care for us at all times and see us through the darkest of times. These things I pray in the name of Jesus', Amen.